A Noteworthy Epiphany
I really need someone in my life who will just slap me upside the head once in a while and tell me to wake up(!) and stop being so rationally irrational.
Any takers?
I've figured out part of my problem. I hate the fact that other people are able to control my emotions. I hate it I hate it I hate it. Every once in a while, I realize that someone has this power over me and I get very upset and mad at myself for allowing this to happen. Now I've gone and done it again today. Sorry just can't work in this type of situation. It's not the other person's fault, it's not my fault, it's just my reaction to the situation. It scares me and then I feel like I need to prove to myself that I can get along just fine without that person's presence in my life. It's completely irrational and I hate it and I wish there were some better way I could explain it. I guess you could call it a defense mechanism but it hurts me so much. Why is it the people I care about the most are the ones I trust the least?
I'm think afraid of what others will find inside my mind.
