late night was really weird. i tried to fall asleep before midnight but it just didn't work. i got offline around 11:15 after talking to elise (this random girl) about life and guys and stuff... so i was going upstairs to bed and all the lights were off, except my mom had forgotten to blow out the candle that's on the coffee table. it was really pretty... it just flickered there.. solemnly...i sat on the couch and watched it for awhile.. it seemed very content. then i started looking out the window.. i was fairly light outside- the sky had a pink tint because it had been snowing early. everything was so peaceful... i've decided that houses are very strange. every one of them is it's own little world. completely sheltered from everything around it... then i started watching the candle again... i didn't really want to blow it out, it was symbolic. i thought about lots of things while watching that candle... i eventually got too tired to just look at it so i went up to bed. i still couldn't sleep, so i started writing. writing about everything. it was good. helped me to sort things out a lil bit.. but not completely. i still have lots of thinking to do. back to school tomorrow. yee~HAW. urgh. then i'll really not have any time to think. but i'm starting yoga tomorrow, maybe that will help. i hope it does. *sigh* i need some happiness right about now.