ahhhhhh i'm thinking about way too many things at one time.
i need a list.
-my little sister jenny is camping out at girl scout camp tonight in a little tent and she is deathly afraid of thunderstorms... and not just to a normal extent.. she freaks out. i'm so worried about her!!!!!!!!
-i love listening to people talk in languages that i do not comprehend. i could sit there and listen all day. at a park, there was this couple and they're little son who was about.. one and half years old. the dad had just gotten home from work and he was pushing the little boy in the little kid swings while the mom stood by and smiled. they were japanese so i had no idea what they were saying, but i could still hear the...love.
-i remember when i thought my pinky fingers were shrinking. i am still convinced that they are. slowly...but surely...
-when i get worried or stressed out or nervous i pick at my fingernails. during the school year, they are almost nonexistent. but in a way, they keep me in check. when they get out of control, i know that i need to slow down and take a break from everything. i could clip my fingernails all day.
-when will i FINISH cleaning out my room? it's seems like it will never end. grrrrar!! but when it is.. party!! :)
-i read more of my antonia today. ::backs myself on the back:: it's not toooo horribly boring so far..
-some people just upset me no matter what. it's inevitable.
-i wish i were more like i used to be... i want my patience back.
-i want to be trusted.
-i want to get rid of my bad attitude.
-i want to reach out more to people instead of just expecting them to come to me.
-i want, i want, i want...
-I WANT TO FEEL NEEDED, DAMMIT!!
-*sigh*
-i need to start answering the phone.
-i want to be able to cry again and just let everything out instead of holding it all inside.
-i want you to be there for me and say that everything is alright.
-i want to be content.
-i want some ice cream. :( cookie dough is my favorite. or a reese's peanut butter cup blizzard with a sip of phil's slushie thing on the side.
-i want to stop expecting the world to revolve around me even though i really don't but i just feel like that sometimes.
-i want to be more decisive.
-i want my enthusiasm for life back.
-but you can't start a fire without a spark...
-i want a spark!!!
-i also want a spork. i love sporks. i don't care if everyone else hates them and thinks they are stupid.
-i like little things. i like little baby spoons. especially the pink ones you get when you sample something at baskin robins. i like little baby carrots and i like little pens, but not little pencils.
-i hate it when my cd player skips and i hate the fact that you can literally see through a space on one of my favorite CDs. it is busted, man.
-i like hideously bright colored things but i also like a lot of black.
-i like surprises but i'm afraid of them.
-i hate when i burn my tongue but i love sipping hot chocolate.
-i like things that are soft.
-i like when people take my advice and things work out for them.
-i love the sense of community... being young and singing around a fire with your arms draped around your best friends in the world and looking up at the stars and wanting nothing more than to stay that way forever.
-i love that feeling i get after reading a really good book... you don't want it to end, but it did and i think about the entire story and just soak it it... and then i have to come back to real life and live my own story.
-i hate it when people say "your cool, your nice, your the greatest," etc. it's YOU ARE which = you're!! ahhh, pet peeve.
-i would love to die laughing.