oooooooh baby!

california, here i come!!!

don't have TOO much fun without me this week... hehe.

i make the greatest movies with our digital camera.

i'll try and take lots of pictures on my trip so Y'ALL can see what i was up to.

i'm so happy right now. i think i'll paint my nails. pink? red? clear? red.

mwah!
<33

**i think that was the most ditzy entry in the history of this blog. but hey, it's spring break!!!!**

i love my friends.

you guys are the greatest.

today i went home sick.

::weird sick face with tongue sticking out::

::weird sick face with tongue sticking out *again*::

(just for good measure)

TWO MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!

till spring break.

ooooooh BABY. i am so excited to get away.

...if I knew all the words I would write myself out of here...

i just remembered something.

one morning a few weeks ago i was putting my contacts in. i had to squirt one with solution because it was dry, but it wouldn't come out. i was in a hurry so i just left it. and then later when i took them out that night, the bottle was fine.

weird.

my life is a continuous song.
everyone in my house randomly sings what they are saying..

we bought a digital camera. :]

the day is new, suzie blue.

actions speak louder than words.

sometimes i wish i could be the best at something.

it amazes me how people can be so good at one thing.

artistry, music, math, sports, studying, humor, being nice, etc.

it's like wow, i wish i could ___ like ___ does.

but then i realize that no. if i could do those things, then i wouldn't be the person i am.

there must be something i'm good at...
or maybe there doesn't have to be.

lesson of the day:

"make the most of yourself, for that is all there is of you."

my sister showed me that if you type "superbowl" in microsoft word, it underlines it for a spelling error.

one of the suggestions is "superb owl."

i found that extremely hilarious. superb owl... hahaha

damn....

i don't think this many people have called or attempted to kidnap me so many times in one night in the history of my life.

and of course this is the one night where i can't do anything.

grrrrar.

i hope you all have fun without me though. :)

wish me luck.

(and critique my paper tomorrow) hehe


P.S. there is a free-for-all-links things to the left. i have redone it so it is now the new cool thing. you can click "add a link" and put up any link. there are categories to put them in as well. feel free to use shameless advertising of yourself or others.

and i remain forever yours,

suzie Q

(haha, that was weird.)

do you know the way to san jose? (song)

we're going to california for spring break!!

woohoo!!

i'll get to see the giant redwood trees and the ocean and hotels and happy things! :)

as lauren and i would say...


i'm something to everyone

and everything to no one.

i wish i could find the words to explain how i feel right now.

i'll try.

i feel like the world is going on without me and i'm watching it from afar.

i was in the basement, trying to do some gatsby homework, but then i just stopped.

i read a few stories submitted to chrysalis. one was about a lake and it reminded me of many memories.

my thoughts wandered for awhile..back to the lake and summer..

and then i came back to reality.

i was suddenly very cold, especially my unprotected fingers and toes.

it was silent, except for the occasional cycling of the heat turning on and then off.

what was i doing sitting alone in a cold basement?

so i got up, turned off the light.

as i went up the stairs, i started to hear the talking of the rest of my family. their laughs.

with every step, i could feel the temperature become slightly warmer and the voices slightly louder.

i opened the door at the top of the stairs and let the light rush over me.

i looked in at them, but i didn't feel like being a part of their celebrations.

and here i am. alone again.

but it's my choice.

why am i making that choice?

nothing is the same anymore.

i wish i would make the choice to be an active part of my life, but i'm not.

all i need... is some understanding.

wait for me.

convince yourself that everything is all right

cause it already is

lately, i've been wasting my friday nights. it's quite sad.

when people just tell me about things at school i think that they really don't want me to go so i don't.

call me b/c i'm a chicken!!

that means you, sonny.

last night was hell.

i rarely get sick, but when i do, it hits hard.

i couldn't even drink a sip of water without throwing up.

and this morning when i woke up i was very close to passing out from dehydration.

not a pleasant experience.

i'm just starting to feel remotely alive right now.

i don't even want to think about school and how much i'll have to make up.

but for now, i'll just concentrate on getting better.

--very sick susan