i haven't written for awhile...suppose i haven't really been in the mood to write down the things that have been happening to me lately. right now, my week is just one big blur. i've barely gotten any sleep this entire week... i have so much homework. it seems so futile sometimes. but i don't want to go into that right now- it's the weekend. i want to talk about drugs. i don't understand, and don't try to make me understand- because i never want to understand. i never want to be at that point. i don't care how you put it, what your reasons are for doing it, or denying that you'll let it get to the point where you get hurt...no. just no. even you get high just once...it'll effect you mentally. b/c now you've found a way to escape reality, right? wrong. you're just denying it...putting things on hold. and you know what? when you keep pushing your problems to the side, they're gonna build up realllllll fast. i think it's the most selfish thing that you can do. i mean, here we are, with every opportunity to do something great, and you waste it. you just toss it out the window without a second thought. poof- gone. and once you toss it out that window, sure, you can get it back..but it takes a lot more effort to do so. you have to pick up the pieces and try to put them back together again. i hope that for your sake they fit back together..but there's bound to be a few pieces that are lost- carried away by the wind...irreplaceable..
and what about the money involved with it too? i hope the next time you smoke you think about the little starving boy that could be eating a nice steak for the price of your joint. i know, i know, why should you care? he doesn't affect you in any way, right? well, you're lucky, and he's not. can he help it? nope. geez, you think you have problems? oh get over it. the world doesn't revolve around you. i'll show you people that really have problems.
i have no respect for people when they're high. none whatsoever. because that's not who they truly are. it's all fake. one big lie.
there's so much more to life than that. there really is. sometimes you just have to look a little deeper. you have to take that extra effort to put things into perspective. but it's worth it. in the end, it's all worth it.
that's my opinion. i know you have yours. but that is mine and i'm sticking to it. i have an open mind in practically all other cases, but not this one. i'm not gonna tell you not to smoke, because you don't have to listen to me. and ultimitely, it's your choice. i just wish i could make you see... how much you miss out on... how much people really do care about you... and how important it is that you really care about yourself...