god, what is wrong with me?
i just left allan/akif's party.
i just felt weird there...
it was a room full of people that i know, but i'm not really friends with.
and all my energy has been drained out of me...
i don't have the energy to talk to them.
i bet no one even noticed that i left.
whatever.
i just need to be alone right now.
and it wasn't the party! allan and akif rock!
it's just me...
i need to cry.
and i need a hug.
wait, what am i saying?
i need to get over myself.
and then there's... she's so inconsiderate sometimes.
there are only so many of her comments that i can take in one day.
my parents are worried about me now.
they think there was drinking or something.
i'm like, 'of course not.'

Say goodbye, lose your friends, make them go, don't need them around
Cause it's time, lose your friends, make them go, was never supposed to be like this
They were too weak, too prone to break
Their needs too deep, their skin too thin
By now you took what was to take
Tear it apart and start again
So go on, if this will make you happier
It got you this far, did what you had to
You've wasted every moment of your Saturdays and your Sundays
You're wasted from the boredom, was never supposed to be like this
Like your father said, just do what was done unto you..always
In your father's steps you'll do what was done unto you
It won't be hard to start again


i don't know. i'm so lost and alone right now.
i couldn't stand the fact that i was surrounded by people
and yet completely alone...
i'm sick of using my energy on people who could probably care less about me.
i'm sick of it.
enough.

all these things are running through my head...
what am i doing???????????

"And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head

All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
This is not enough

All the things she said
All the things she said

Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind

Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?

All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
This is not enough