well, looks like i'm still here....

guess that apple wasn't as poisoned as i thought.

ah well.

i am very tired right now.
*zzZzzZzzzzZZZZzzz*

i have been greatly suffering from a realization i had yesterday.
i realized that no matter what i do, it is never good enough.
i have tried so many things, but i'm never any good at them.
there's always someone better. always.
i have no talent.
nope, none.
i've tried, i really have...
let's make i list of things i'm not good enough at.
-viola
-basketball
-volleyball
-piano
-singing
-writing
-acting
-being fake

i'm sure there's more but i can't think of them now.

so yeah. never good enough.

and i'm sick of it.