today was still the church/meeting/babysitting day, but it was also the quick!-think-about-your-future day.

i spent most of the morning looking at colleges. i'm actually getting more into it. there are many more possibilities for me than i expected. i'm already getting torn between a few of them.

and then tonight i was babysitting. my neighbors just adopted a new baby boy named philip and he is adorable.

katie kept saying how motherly i am and how i'm going to be one of those crazy people with 14 children.

and i'll admit it, i would be a great mother. i have so much patience with kids and i love making them happy and seeing them grow. but. but what about my plans for saving the whole world? and i guess i could say that being a good mother is saving the world in a way because you bring in new caring people.

and what about my environmental craziness and teaching and my school and sustainable living and global peace and justice and travel and such?? do i give all of that up? is that the right thing to do? or do i not raise a family?

can i do everything?

well, i guess i could do everything. but could i do it well?