ah yes. another day has come and gone. today is monday. tgio. (thank god it's over.) yah...ben and i broke up last night... it wasn't that bad b/c i saw it coming a long time ago. i guess i was just in denial about it or something.. today was kinda weird b/c he wasn't there to walk with me and stuff..but it's not like i really ever got to see him anyway... we had a lot of good times together- especially last summer... downer's grove, going to prairie almost every night, six flags, the last fling, david's sex basement, lauren's house, my house, calling him at 1 in the morning, hearing the phone ring and my mom yelling upstairs to me that it was ben (again, hehe), just random things. good times... 7 months is a long time. i think that it really was time that we broke up.. i have all of these "crazy" ideals and goals and i think i need to accomplish them by myself. i don't know if i really want another boyfriend for awhile.. psh, what are guys good for anyway? (haha, a lil feminism kicking in.) in bio today, mr. ley said that women are biologically superior to men. haha, losers. ehh...but you still gotta love 'em. right? right. ahh...guess what song is stuck in my head? that old song it goes, "WAR. what is it good for? absolutely nothing." lol, oh MAMA. speaking of songs, last night when i went to bed i had to take the jewel cd out of my stereo b/c i was gonna use it for my persuasive speech. then i was just thinking about how weird it would be if "pretty girl" was playing...so i turned on the radio and guess what? it sure was playing. lauren's absolutely right. everything IS interconnected. sometimes it's so connected that it's scary.
i went to yoga tonight. yoga is realllly cool. i love it. i guess that if you went into it with a bad attitude, like "this is dumb" then it would be dumb. but if you really try to concentrate and do it right then it really helps you to relax. everytime that i leave there, i'm always kind of zoned out. like, i have alll this energy and i could run and run and run...but, i don't want to. it's a cool feeling. lol haha lauren, we're so bad.
*reminder to myself*
who i am
what i was
what i have done
what has been done to me
has led me to this very sacred moment in time
ahh... i was just watching the video of the speech i gave today. it was a persuasive speech about how everyone has their own individual talents and gifts and that they should use them to help change the world. it was pretty good i think.. i hope i got my message across to them b/c it is something that i feel very passionately about! hehe. "the time has come when speaking is not enough, applauding is not enough. we have to act." ~Jacques Cousteau.
~Let us stand with jacques cousteau and commit ourselves to action, every if it is done one person and one decision at a time.~