it feels like sunday.
today was a weird day.
i'm not as mad as i was now.
i guess that's a good thing.
i babysat tonight.
i got $40.
yeehaw.
but i really don't do it for the money.
money can kiss my ass.
twice.
peter went to bed so i had nothing to do.
i actually watched tv.
it was weird.
i haven't watched tv for...a lonnng time.
i watched the most mindless thing i could find.
"the real world- battle of the sexes"
oh yes.
that was interesting.
i want james' pants-
OFF.
but not really.
i'm tired.
not sleepy.
tired.
i'm burned out.
i want a break from everything.
and warm weather.
i hate being cold.
i'm always cold.
it sucks.
i must have a messed up body temperature.
i should prolly go to bed.
but i'm not tired.
well, maybe i am.
i'm bored.
boredom sucks.
burping is fun.
i want to be innocent.
i realized something.
you can't change people that aren't innocent.
no matter how hard you try.
"you can own the earth and still, all you'll own is earth until...you can paint with all the colors of the wind..."
"aint it funny how some feelings you just can't deny and you can't move on even though you try
aint it strange when you're feelin things you shouldn't feel?
aint it funny how a moment can change your life and you don't wanna face what's wrong or right,
aint it strange how fate can play a part in the story of your heart..?"
"so take a good look at my face, you'll see my smile looks out of place, if you look closer it's easy to trace the tracks of my tears..."
"1,2, 3, 4, looks like i'm alone again and i feel fine, doesn't really matter now, cuz i'm alright, left me on my ass again, but i don't mind, looks like i'm alone again and feel fine.."
"nothing's fine, i'm torn, i'm all out of faith, this is how i feel, i'm cold and i'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor, illusion never changed into something real, i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn, you're a little late, i'm already torn.."
"how many roads must a man walk down, before they call him a man? the answer is blowing in the wind..."
"she's in love with the world"
"say that you'll stay forever and a day..."
"we don't have to stay friends, let's pretend to be enemies... yeah whatever makes you happy..."
"and the clock on the wall has been stuck at 3 for days and days"
"love, why you look so sad? tears are in your eyes, c'mon and come to me now, don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through, cuz i've seen the dark side too, when the night falls on you and you don't know what to do, nothing you confess could make me love you less, i'll stand by you, i'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you, i'll stand by you..."