i slept/read this whole day away...
and i'm still exhausted...
it's been tough at school lately...
only 5 real school days are left
it doesn't seem real yet.
this semester went by sooooooo slow and yet soooooooooo fast at the same time.
i'm stuck in the middle of everything... no clear start or end to anything...
and the strange weather yesterday.. that's exactly how i'm feeling lately...
caught between the storms and the sun.
i'm so full of mixed emotions and i don't know what to do.
everything is ending...
but new things are just starting...
i don't know whether to be happy or sad or.... or something else.
we're halfway done w/ school guys...
and it freaks me out.
and everyone dies.
it's so bizarre to look around you and know that it will all be gone someday.
things that are real to me now will pass
and other people/things will take their place.
i took the place of other people too.
it's all a cycle... and we witness barely a fraction of it...
i want more.
but more of what? that, i don't know.
i stayed after school on friday for a while in "susan's corner" and i wrote.
it was so quiet and still....
everything that had been awake and full of energy only a few minutes before
now slept... waiting...
especially the lockers.
they held hidden secrets, so important now..
but are lost with the changing of life.
and next year, it will be different.
new secrets to keep, new faces...new opportunities....
with the ringing of bell, everything is gone.