oh my god.
what have i done?
i want to apologize to everyone, but i can't right now. b/c i'm not ok with myself.
what have i done?
i've been pushing everyone away from me lately.
just... push push...
distancing myself from everything and everyone.
and i'm not happy.
i'm just not.
it's not because of anything specific, just all these things put together.
i just read my email for the first time in about a week
and i got so many emails from people asking how i was.
i feel so horrible.
i mean, these people genuinely care about me and i've just been pushing them away.
i love you guys, i really do.
please don't think i love you any less.
i'm yours always.