i have many things i need to sort out with myself.
i used to be so idealistic in every possible way...
always tried to make the best of things...
made them memorable..
even if that seemed impossible, i usually succeeded in doing so.
but now...
agh...
i really..don't care.
the one feeling i swore i would never feel.
apathy.
it's such an ugly word for such an ugly emotion.
it is so incredibly difficult to stay idealistic in this world.
i was always "too happy" or "too nice."
and that slowly ate away at me.
i didn't want to appear phony because i truly was just as happy as i seemed.
life was good.
my ideas for single-handedly changing the world and making everyone care about themselves and their potential were swiftly tossed aside and left on barren ground to be stepped on.
i'll admit it... i gave up.
i was just young and naive anyway, right?
no! i wasn't! i was RIGHT.
i just listened to the wrong people.
what's that quote on the side of this blog...?
''Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions.
Small people always do that,
but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great.''
-Mark Twain
ah yes. that is it. that is the key. the missing piece that i forgot.
i had goals, plans, enthusiasm.
but i listened to you. i let you be right.
i just said, "well, that's just the way it is..."
no no no no no no NO!
things are always changing. that's a fact.
so if they're always changing, why can't they change for the better?
why did i give up so easily?
and that, my friends, is why i am so confused now.
because i know i was right, but now my pure idealism is gone.
is it too late for me?
i sure hope not.
so bear with me while i'm figuring things out.
i know that i can't do it all myself, but i could start something.
the only way it would last would be with your help though..
yes, you.
and you know why i'm going to try?
because i want more out of life than this.
i want more.
we all deserve better.
not as a matter of material things, but as a matter of the quality of your life.
we can do it, baby.
i used to be so idealistic in every possible way...
always tried to make the best of things...
made them memorable..
even if that seemed impossible, i usually succeeded in doing so.
but now...
agh...
i really..don't care.
the one feeling i swore i would never feel.
apathy.
it's such an ugly word for such an ugly emotion.
it is so incredibly difficult to stay idealistic in this world.
i was always "too happy" or "too nice."
and that slowly ate away at me.
i didn't want to appear phony because i truly was just as happy as i seemed.
life was good.
my ideas for single-handedly changing the world and making everyone care about themselves and their potential were swiftly tossed aside and left on barren ground to be stepped on.
i'll admit it... i gave up.
i was just young and naive anyway, right?
no! i wasn't! i was RIGHT.
i just listened to the wrong people.
what's that quote on the side of this blog...?
''Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions.
Small people always do that,
but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great.''
-Mark Twain
ah yes. that is it. that is the key. the missing piece that i forgot.
i had goals, plans, enthusiasm.
but i listened to you. i let you be right.
i just said, "well, that's just the way it is..."
no no no no no no NO!
things are always changing. that's a fact.
so if they're always changing, why can't they change for the better?
why did i give up so easily?
and that, my friends, is why i am so confused now.
because i know i was right, but now my pure idealism is gone.
is it too late for me?
i sure hope not.
so bear with me while i'm figuring things out.
i know that i can't do it all myself, but i could start something.
the only way it would last would be with your help though..
yes, you.
and you know why i'm going to try?
because i want more out of life than this.
i want more.
we all deserve better.
not as a matter of material things, but as a matter of the quality of your life.
we can do it, baby.
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