i feel like writing a story.
i want to make a society.
i wish that it was summer because i could use some laying-in-fields right about now.
The seasons are always fighting for my attention. When I am upset at the world, I want to give up or curl up and disappear for a while, but another part of me wants to spill my guts to someone and let them help me solve my problems. I wish that I could allow other people inside of my thoughts and know that they understood me. I know that this is impossible but it is so frustrating to realize that I can’t change everything and that I need to start small. When winter has the upper hand, I feel guilty for not reaching out to other people. I know that I am lucky. So many opportunities have been given to me that I feel obligated to share myself with others. I know that I have been given the necessary tools in order to really make a difference in this world and keeping that gift to myself is unthinkable. Like a tulip bulb, I am planted in the ground so that my roots can grow strong. If I plant myself too close to the surface, then a squirrel will surely dig me up. But if I plant myself too deeply in the soil, the sun will not be able to reach me and I will not grow. What I need is to find the perfect depth to be planted so that I am not uprooted and the sun's rays are able to nourish me.
i am so organized this week. i'm even ahead of everything. i just might be in bed by 9:30 (!!!)
i need something. i need that warmth.
maybe my physical coldness is a reflection of my mind. i mean, who wears a long sleeve shirt (that says superstar), a fleece sweater thing, and a huge sweatshirt?? and who doesn't feel hot wearing it?? i think i just like the comfort of it so the heat doesn't matter. safe. secure. snuggly.
let's have a sleepover! this friday!
this is my mostly-free weekend. next weekend will be sooo busy. ooooh MAMA!
i want to laugh and laugh and laugh! i want to throw my head back and laugh! i am free!
the goldfish in the pond are frozen.
there IS good in the world! there is!
CDs are sooooo rounnnnnd.........
my roses are magnificent. LIFE LIFE LIFE!
"bloom where you are planted!"
define yourself!
sing! dance! frolic! hop! skip! breathe! twirl! spin! yell! whisper! hum! rejoice! laugh until you fall over! imagine! create! share! feel! question! break free!
FOR YOU ARE ALIVE!!!!!
i want to make a society.
i wish that it was summer because i could use some laying-in-fields right about now.
The seasons are always fighting for my attention. When I am upset at the world, I want to give up or curl up and disappear for a while, but another part of me wants to spill my guts to someone and let them help me solve my problems. I wish that I could allow other people inside of my thoughts and know that they understood me. I know that this is impossible but it is so frustrating to realize that I can’t change everything and that I need to start small. When winter has the upper hand, I feel guilty for not reaching out to other people. I know that I am lucky. So many opportunities have been given to me that I feel obligated to share myself with others. I know that I have been given the necessary tools in order to really make a difference in this world and keeping that gift to myself is unthinkable. Like a tulip bulb, I am planted in the ground so that my roots can grow strong. If I plant myself too close to the surface, then a squirrel will surely dig me up. But if I plant myself too deeply in the soil, the sun will not be able to reach me and I will not grow. What I need is to find the perfect depth to be planted so that I am not uprooted and the sun's rays are able to nourish me.
i am so organized this week. i'm even ahead of everything. i just might be in bed by 9:30 (!!!)
i need something. i need that warmth.
maybe my physical coldness is a reflection of my mind. i mean, who wears a long sleeve shirt (that says superstar), a fleece sweater thing, and a huge sweatshirt?? and who doesn't feel hot wearing it?? i think i just like the comfort of it so the heat doesn't matter. safe. secure. snuggly.
let's have a sleepover! this friday!
this is my mostly-free weekend. next weekend will be sooo busy. ooooh MAMA!
i want to laugh and laugh and laugh! i want to throw my head back and laugh! i am free!
the goldfish in the pond are frozen.
there IS good in the world! there is!
CDs are sooooo rounnnnnd.........
my roses are magnificent. LIFE LIFE LIFE!
"bloom where you are planted!"
define yourself!
sing! dance! frolic! hop! skip! breathe! twirl! spin! yell! whisper! hum! rejoice! laugh until you fall over! imagine! create! share! feel! question! break free!
FOR YOU ARE ALIVE!!!!!
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