i haven't cried so hard in a long time. i have been holding it in.

when i cry, i look so pathetic.

my eyelashes become all dark and long and wet.

my face gets all *splotchy.*

i look so miserable.

today i couldn't even breathe. i couldn't think. it took me over.

talk about crying a river..

i don't think i have any tears left.

it's a long story about why i am so upset.

far too complicated and disillusioned for me to try and explain it to anyone.

there isn't anything anyone can do, except to support me. don't ask questions because i can't give you the answers. i am lost.

please don't give up on me like i have given up on myself.



the sky is grey


the sand is grey.


the ocean is grey.



i feel right at home

in this stunning monochrome.


alone

in my way.