lately i've been getting panic attacks (or something like that) whenever i take a test.

my mom is worried about me.

i'll be fine, i'll be fine...

i wish i could say that with more enthusiasm.

i'm so tired of making mistakes.

i'm tired of being emotional and i'm tired of so many people and i'm tired of myself and i'm tired of school and i'm tired of not caring and i'm tired of caring too much.

and about that "i want to be in love" entry- psh, forget that. love is hell. who needs love anyway? what does love get you?

bah humbug.
it's all a lie.