i have reached this point in my current life.
but i can't explain it.
nothing makes sense.

i think one thing and everyone else thinks another.
do i really have that twisted of a view of myself?

i try so hard but i never win.

i feel so bad for needing so much attention lately.
i know that i'm not the only person with problems and things to do.

i cried at school.
what a loser.

my head feels so strange from it. i have this dull ache in the back of my head, my eyes are dry and my cheeks feel icky.

even the weekend doesn't seem as appealing as it did before.

i really should be writing my ARRR bee now. it will be a long poem entitled "drifting." it's going to have 2 columns that contrast each other.
but no one cares about my stupid RB that doesn't even exist yet, do they?

i made a new friend today.

i've been ever so lonely lately.
but i don't want to talk.
so i guess it's my fault.
just like everything.

i'm such a bad influence on my little sisters. :(
they are 11 year old procrastinators...
this morning was not pretty at my house.
i had to make my own lunch. i wrote REJECTED on it.

i let my primroses grow wilted again.

i have math, history, french, psych, and chem tests/quizzes tomorrow. and an RRRRRR bee due.

lovely. just lovely.

i can waltz now. well sort of.